Sometimes you have to risk it all in order to gain everything you've ever dreamed of.

And I did lose it all...but boy did I gain so much more! I am so happy! Tons of things are happening and I'm stressed but blissful.

If you've been a follower, you might notice that many posts are deleted or edited. This was on purpose. My old life is gone.

It's been a long time, loves. I think I might be back. I say 'I think' because I'm going to be very busy in the next couple of months but I miss blogging and I need an outlet to process my thoughts and emotions.

My life, since getting back to Georgia in late July 2010, has done a complete 180. I'm not kidding. It truly has, in every sense of the word. Please do not judge my choices...I've had enough of that in the last couple of months to last many lifetimes! If you have questions, ASK ME FIRST, but do not assume you know something.

I cannot go into extreme details on here due to privacy and court issues, but here is what has happened in that amount of time:


-I separated from my husband. Divorce will be finalized anytime now. There are many reasons why. This should have happened years ago....I had been very unhappy for awhile. I gave the guy a good talk on here only because I was trying to be a good wife. I couldn't do it anymore, so I removed myself from unhappiness. He was not right for me and this was proven in many ways. I will say this...if you have not gone through a divorce, you do not understand. Sorry, but you don't. Period.

-I'm engaged! Yes, that is right! In the midst of all this mess, my soul mate walked into my life. Words cannot even begin to describe what this man means to me. It's a fairytale love story that will be saved for a post all on it's own. You will get goose bumps when you read it...trust me! I will post this in the next coming months. Let's just say that he is more than I've ever dreamed of and is my soul mate, partner, lover, the bestest friend I've ever had, confidant, my everything. He is my male counterpart and we're getting married next year.

-I worked full time at a wonderful salon/spa, but I'm now about to start to manage the family business. The folks made me an offer I couldn't refuse. So starting next week, I'm the assistant manager of a healthy frozen yogurt business that the fam started back in September. I'm very excited but nervous, too. I hope I will be a good asset and entrepreneur.

-I lost everything. When I say everything, I'm not kidding. I lost family. I lost and gained friends. I lost money. I lost furniture and other belongings. I lost my cats. I lost things I cannot name on here. But I gained wonderful things in my life, as well. Remember, the glass is always half full, not half empty.

-People have either been very supportive or not at all. But these are my life choices, not someone else's. You are responsible for your own happiness. I cannot make everyone happy. The people that I thought would stand by me no matter what, did not. The people that did, however, were a bit of a surprise.

-I got closer to God. He has been there with me through all of this and if it weren't for Him, I would not be able to do this and I would not have gotten through the past 9 months. I'm blessed!

-My emotions have been like a roller coaster, along with my life. I've felt everything from stress, guilt, loneliness, depression, sadness, fear, anxiety, worry, frustration, happiness, excitement, wonder, freedom, relief, love, etc. I've felt it all....and about ten times stronger than what a human normally feels with emotions.

-There is nothing left of my old life. I have a new man, no pets, a new car, a new apartment, new surroundings, new career, I live on the opposite side of the country now (I used to live in the Seattle area) and in my hometown in Georgia. New everything.


I'm sure I'm forgetting something. So much has happened. Here is to new beginnings!


God Bless,

B

I'm alive

Hey loves!

I just wanted to do a quick update. I'm not sure if I'm back for good. But I am alive!! Things are crazy and continue to get crazier.

I might as well tell you what is happening and why I need a break from blogging. I am getting divorced. I won't go into details but that is what is happening. I'm staying positive though....I know I will make it through this a stronger woman.

Thanks for all the support and understanding! Eventually, blogging will be a part of my life again.

-B

Blog Break

Okay loves,

I think I need to take a break from blogging just for a bit. I've got too much going on right now and I cannot talk about it online. I'm okay, rest assured. But I think I should take a mini vacay from blogging, for the moment.

Thank you to all my followers for understanding. I will be back! =)

-B

This ever changing world pushes me through another door

I know it's been awhile since I blogged. A lot has been happening in my life. When I say a lot, I mean it.

-I got the job I wanted. I will be Guest Services/Salon Coordinator for a fabulous salon. Wonderful news!

-My appetite is shot. I'm not sick, least I'm pretty sure I'm not. I'm thinking it's the heat, but I don't need nearly as much food as I used to and I still have lots of energy. I've also lost even more weight.

-Which brings me to my next happening...I finally found a gym I love. It's cheap, clean, and I'm still going 5 days a week. I started strength training along with my regular cardio.



-Something has happened in my life recently that I never expected and it has blown me away. It's confusing, real, and I don't understand it yet. I may not for a few months, either. But it is something important and life altering. It's a good thing. It occupies a good portion of my thoughts and I'm not sure what to make of it just yet. I know I will figure it out though...in the next few months.

That is about it. I'm keeping myself busy and eagerly awaiting the start of my new job.

Later ya'll!

Blog Award! My First!

The Rules
1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you this award.

Sabrina over at Making Macready's. Button on the left if you want to pay her a visit. Thank you, gorgeous!

2. Share seven things about yourself.

* I never thought I'd ever want to live in the deep south again. Ever. I thought I was set for living in the northwest. Nope. I got homesick around the 3.5 year mark. You can take the girl outta the south, but you can't take the south outta the girl.
* I have this deep seated gut feeling...or fear (hopefully just fear) that I cannot have kids.
* I love the smell of Hawaiian Tropic sunscreens. I think it's coconut, but either way, best summer smell!
* If I don't do my cardio 5 days a week, I feel nasty.
* I like just having one cat. Psst...do not tell Charlie! I will see Charlie again soon, but honestly, I've loved just having Roger.
* I dig Cholula! The hot sauce. I know....I know...I should only like Louisiana hot sauce...but I can't help it.
* I'm afraid of clowns. Very afraid.





3. Pass this award along to fifteen bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic for whatever reason!


My 15 Fab Finds are as follows:

Everyone! I'm too lazy to list them. Just look at the blogs I follow.

Apothecary Jars

I'm totally into apothecary jars. Why didn't I think of these before?

I'd love to have a set in our future master bathroom next to the bathtub (hopefully a claw foot that is separate from walk-in shower? We can dream!) to hold bubble bath, bath salts, etc. So pretty! They would also be nice in the entryway of our home to hold candies, shells, pine cones, etc. I could change the contents with the seasons too. Loving it!

They look expensive and yes, they can be. But honestly, I've seen these at Goodwill, thrift stores, etc...for practically nothing. You just have to look.

I needed this

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.

Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten.

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it will never be enough.

Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God.

It was never between you and them anyway.

- Mother Teresa